French course...

Bonjour! French course is a tough business... I'm exhausted. Shot! Slammed? Wiped out. But the good thing is I woke up the other day thinking in French. That is a good sign.

The home is falling apart with no order what so ever. We barely survive at this point. My Mom is here to help with school departs in the mornings as I have to leave home before 7am... The mountains and Lausanne is a pretty view as  I walk to school from the train station... Jay is on a business trip to New Zealand... We do what we have to do and slowly we are finding a new routine.

We snuggle up, watch TV (Once upon the time... ) and surf the Internet. We go to bed early, make stews and soups that we eat for multiple days in a row. We let things be. Including half eaten apples left on the living room table together with the latest Lego engineering's by Luca... Charlie the cat seem to enjoy sleeping on tables pretty much everywhere in the house. now when no one tells him to get down.

There is not much time for blogging. Not much time for anything. But I'm getting there. Little by little. I finished the pattern for the new scarf. IT will be listed this week. Yes!

Bare with me on these busy days. I will soon get back to normal blog routines. And maybe, just maybe, I will throw out that half eaten apple in the compost today.

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Annette

Behind the scenes

Hi. My name is Annette. I am a blogger, writer, crochet artist, designer, photographer, model, marketing manager, art director, stylist, customer service agent, business owner, book keeper, shop owner...

Not really but when being a blogger you actually are all this. At least if your blog is a small business to run, like mine. I model my own creations. My adorable daughters help me during the photo shoot. We goof around and happy me get the chance to catch some really nice pictures of my girls as well. It is good fun being a blogger/everything else included. Stressful at times. It is hard to do it all. But it is also very rewarding to be in charge. To do it my way.

We made this photo shoot a couple of days ago. It was for my latest design, a cozy and chunky scarf. I call it Wilma's Scarf. The pictures turned out great I have to say.

She is a real talent behind the lens, my dear Nelly Bo. Me, I'm not the most confident model but with help from a silly and funny Emmy Bo, I tend to relax and things turn out okay. We are a good team and I'm blessed to have my little helpers in my business. Pattern for this scarf will be released any day now.

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Annette

PS 1:Thank you a million for all your sweet words on my last post. I read every single word and it makes me so strong to receive such great encouragement and to hear your own stories. The love from you sent to me in your words is bouncing right back to you all.

PS 2: Face The Fear - Showing myself on the blog and not apologize for wrinkles and imperfections but embrace and be proud as these pictures are awesome. :)

I refuse to let fear guide my life

A new year always invites to new thoughts. I reflect upon 2014 and ask myself what I would like to do different in 2015. You see I am a girl who lets fear and worries lead my life. I doubt myself and am trapped in a classic "I am never good enough" state of mind. Many of you can probably relate to this. I know I am not alone. Still I feel alone in this.

Every day is a battle against these traits. I fight so hard to overcome the fear and self doubts. Little by little I am getting more and more confident and the best thing I have ever done was to step out of my comfort zone about 15 years ago by quitting my job to take a Time Out and make changes to my life. And I sure found change.

I can easily say that after taking that first big step of facing the fear and going against it, I have done it a thousand more times if not even more. It has made me grow and learn tremendous things about myself and my near and dear ones. It hasn't always been easy, quite the opposite - these years have been he most challenging in my life so far. But they have also been the most fulfilling and rewarding years.

I did this because I don't want to be a victim to fear and worries, low self esteem and constant uncertainty about doing things right. I know I can make my life the way I want it to be if I'm just brave enough to take charge. Grab the steering wheel. Become an active traveler instead of just sitting along on this bouncy journey in the passenger seat.

I very much refuse to let fear guide my life the way it has done and still partly is.

I refuse to limit myself and my abilities to the lack of self-belief.

Aging helps. Time and experiences, mistakes and solutions found makes me reach further and closer to a life with no regrets, with fulfillment and the ability to say I am proud of myself and I am good enough to have it all; love, respect, health, success and happiness.

I will not let fear guide my life in 2015. I will take action and work hard to make my dreams come true. It will be interesting to see where this statement will take me. And for the record, some of you might think I am a Superwoman with no fear in my pocket (don't believe everything you see...) and maybe I am a Superwoman at times. But most of the time I am just a normal girl, tip toeing around life like it would be a big bad wolf. And that (!) I want to change.

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Annette