A new year always invites to new thoughts. I reflect upon 2014 and ask myself what I would like to do different in 2015. You see I am a girl who lets fear and worries lead my life. I doubt myself and am trapped in a classic "I am never good enough" state of mind. Many of you can probably relate to this. I know I am not alone. Still I feel alone in this.
Every day is a battle against these traits. I fight so hard to overcome the fear and self doubts. Little by little I am getting more and more confident and the best thing I have ever done was to step out of my comfort zone about 15 years ago by quitting my job to take a Time Out and make changes to my life. And I sure found change.
I can easily say that after taking that first big step of facing the fear and going against it, I have done it a thousand more times if not even more. It has made me grow and learn tremendous things about myself and my near and dear ones. It hasn't always been easy, quite the opposite - these years have been he most challenging in my life so far. But they have also been the most fulfilling and rewarding years.
I did this because I don't want to be a victim to fear and worries, low self esteem and constant uncertainty about doing things right. I know I can make my life the way I want it to be if I'm just brave enough to take charge. Grab the steering wheel. Become an active traveler instead of just sitting along on this bouncy journey in the passenger seat.
I very much refuse to let fear guide my life the way it has done and still partly is.
I refuse to limit myself and my abilities to the lack of self-belief.
Aging helps. Time and experiences, mistakes and solutions found makes me reach further and closer to a life with no regrets, with fulfillment and the ability to say I am proud of myself and I am good enough to have it all; love, respect, health, success and happiness.
I will not let fear guide my life in 2015. I will take action and work hard to make my dreams come true. It will be interesting to see where this statement will take me. And for the record, some of you might think I am a Superwoman with no fear in my pocket (don't believe everything you see...) and maybe I am a Superwoman at times. But most of the time I am just a normal girl, tip toeing around life like it would be a big bad wolf. And that (!) I want to change.