I am not sure if you have noticed, but I have been more quiet than normal lately... You see, I talked about change not long a go and how we are planning for change, but then when change happens without you being in control over it, it kind of makes you loose your balance for bit. You fall, sometimes hard, sometimes not so hard.
Last week it was my turn to get laid off at my office job. It has been in the air since February last year when the company started their cuts by laying off 8 people. Since then many colleagues have retired or given their notice, been moved to other departments or released from work for different reasons. And last Tuesday 6 more of us were asked to leave, including myself.
Even if it was expected i still reacted very strongly. I should mention that my office job has been everything but a fun and fulfilling job, but it has been a job where I come in to work, do my thing, leave and go home without dragging it with me...
It has been flexible and perfect for someone like me with 3 young children in a foreign country. I stayed longer than I ever believed I would, 4 years in total, and I made good friends. It has been a social platform more than anything else. It has been an everyday routine for that Stay At Home Mum who finally got out there after 9 years of housework and childcare. It made me feel that I can do different things. I count in my team. I do well. I provide, a small amount at least.
I get up in the morning, get dressed nice and put make up on. I smile at my colleagues and gossip about grown up things like troubles, travels, Switzerland, Sweden, life, husbands, children, home, friends, food... It was a place where we made small collects and signed birthday cards, bought bouquets of flowers for every one's special day. We laughed and we cried and whined and we were there for each other. Always.
But all that is over now. I am moving on. It has taken me a few days to stand up strong. Change is good. Change is scary. I see opportunities. Time to devote myself to My Rose Valley, to my crafts, to my writing and designing. I am ready to take on a new direction, more fulfilling and more challenging than before. A new direction in my direction within crochet, crafts, writing and designing. This is only the beginning of something new. It is time to make all my dreams come true!