This is where she likes to be. On our bed with headphones on. Drawing pad in hand and music or podcast in her ears. Preferable with a cat nearby. Purring.
She watches You Tubers like Joe Sugg, Zoella, and Alfie Deyes, watches drawing tutorials and listens to Japanese language courses. She scrolls through her Snapchat, Instagram and pins on her Pinterest boards. A new outfit, hair do, drawing motives, travel inspiration, quotes about life... And she listens to music. All. The. Time.
She doesn't have WiFi in her room. That space is somehow hidden from the internet signals, us living in an old farm house built from big stone blocks. That is why she ends up here, in our bedroom.
If she is not there, she sits at her desk in her room or by the piano. This school year she is doing the advanced program in school and it was a very hard decision to make. She was scared. Nervous. Afraid she wouldn't like it. Hated school and wanted more then anything just out of there. Certainly not study more. But she took the leap. And she is happy. She has blossomed with her challenge and transformed into another person. And every day she tells me stories about how happy she is with her new school program and her new class. How she belongs there with other kids at the same level. With the same hobbies, maturity and interest about other things than just clothes and make up. They talk about the world, politics and how to save the world. And music. Of course.
I'm so proud. She faced her fear and she did it. She inspires me. Its good to be inspired by your children. It makes me want to face my fears and grow too. And you know what? I made her! Well, maybe not only me but you know what I mean. I'm a proud Mama and I needed to brag about. So I did. As a Mama you are allowed. So today I'm patting myself on my shoulder and saying "Good job Annette!".