|Luca & Norton - best buddies on the track and at home!|
Hello my lovelies! It is a sunny day and me and Luca are going for a walk in the woods. You see, he had an accident 2 weekends ago. A bad one. On his motocross. He jumped and landed on his front wheel and was thrown onto his handlebar right across his stomach, just underneath the ribs.
At first we thought it was ok. He was with his best buddy's Dad and his crew, and we said to just bring him home. But when he was carried into the house, all pale and confused, we instantly knew something had gone wrong. It was not just a broken rib and some scratches.
He was taken to the Emergency room where they discovered that he suffered from a liver laceration. level 4, which had resulted in an internal bleeding. He was transferred with a helicopter to Geneva University Hospital and the Intensive Care Unit. I came out that evening to stay the night. The first of many sleepless nights in hospital.
We took turns me and Jay, neighbors stepped in and helped out with the girls. Time stopped and I withdrew to our own private sphere... We made it through one day after another, sleeping in 20 minute blocks, driving back and forth to the hospital, swopping shifts... and finally on day 5 it all turned around like a miracle. Luca managed to sleep for 4 hours in a row without waking up in pain. The pain finally had gone, we could cut off the morphine and Luca magically stepped up and took a few steps. His best buddy Norton came to visit, which made Luca overly happy. The next day we were released to go home.
Anyway - today it is a sunny day! And me and Luca are going for a walk in the woods. Did I tell you that already? After 6 days in bed rest, Luca is still a bit weak and wobbly in his steps. He needs exercise to build up his muscles and he needs rest and food to build up his strength. We do home schooling and hang out, rest, walk and eat.
The doctor's order is no sports in 3 months... He had a 2,5 inches/6 cm cut in his 4 inches/10 cm big liver... It takes a while for that to heal properly... But Luca says he wants to get back on the bike after the summer. I think that is a good sign.
When you fall off the horse you should get right back up!
Isn't that what they say? I don't want fear to put a stop for his love of motocross or put limits to his active life in the future. He has always been extreme, he was born extreme. I can't stop it. It is just the type of character he is.
The crisis is over and we are slowly getting back into routine. Below is a snippet of something I wrote during those terrible days... I have already forgotten how hard it was. Although I am still recovering as well. Although we are all so happy and relieved, now comes the post trauma reaction... A lot of rest for all of us is needed I believe. And holding hands.
"Tuesday 26th of May:
I can't. I just can't get anything done. I sit here and try to catch up on things. I know I have things to do. I have the time to do it too. But I just can't. I sit, stare and it's like I'm frozen. I walk like a zombie, I move like in slow motion. I eat a sandwich, poor myself a cup of tea. Watch TV shows I've never watched before... I should probably empty the dishwasher, prepare a stew for dinner, fold and put away some laundry and pay some bills. I should fill out the accident report and deal with some paper work, finish my Mom's quilt binding and tidy up the house... But I just sit and stare, watching the minutes pass by. Waiting to get out of the house and drive back to the hospital.
All I want to do is sit by Luca's side and hold his hand and watch his recovery. Because being here at home feels like a waste of time... I should be there! But I also know that I can't be there 24/7. I need to catch up on sleep, eat and fill up my resources so I can sit there when it is my turn. When Jay comes home to run the show with the girls and take care of himself, then it is my watch. My turn to be there by Luca's side. I just hope he will get better soon. That he can come home soon. And that everything can go back to normal and we can let go of the worry that cuts like knives in our hearts.
Luca had a motocross accident and suffers from internal injuries. He is in bed rest for quickest recovery. But the worst thing is that he is in a lot of pain. I would take all that pain in an instant if I only could. Pain is the worst."