I am taking Emmy to school after lunch. She is sitting like a lady on the bicycle bar in front of me on the bike (highly illegal and lots of fun!!!) and we go fast down the road. We pretend to be a race car making race car noises, changing gear, top gear, low gear. Stop and beep beep. I let her off and she runs into class. I sit up to go back home. And start making race car noises. On my own. Without a child on my bicycle bar. I am embarrassed to say, but that is what motherhood does to you.
Me and two friends took a trip across the boarder to France to visit a big craft store and have lunch together. It was a precious outing as we seldom get to have time for ourselves without kids... We chatted in the car about this and that when I spotted a parachuter gliding in the sky.
"Look!!! Parachuter!!!" I shout and my girlfriends look at me like I am a weirdo and burst into laughter. Because I have no child in the car today who wants to see a parachuter, only two girl friends who thinks this is hilarious... That is what motherhood does to you.
And when I go shopping, walking up and down the isles of food, I sometimes find myself humming:
"Na nah nah nah. Na nah nah nah. Elmo's world... Hum hum hum. Nah nah nah nah..." or any other children's cartoon intro... I think I know at least a dozen different ones by heart... I guess it would be more cool to hum a pretty melody from the pop charts but... This is what motherhood does to you.
Or what about the times you've gone for a walk with your baby in the pushchair and met a friend who wants to hold him/her, and while she is chatting and holding your baby you find yourself still rocking the pushchair although it is as empty as it can be... All the things that we do... Beacuse that is what motherhood does to you.
Motherhood... Fantastic. Embarrassing. Challenging. It owns you, it is under your skin, in your dreams in every breath you take. Everything is about them. It is the hardest work you will ever do. And the most important one. Lets spend more time together checking out parachuters, humming kids cartoon intros and pretending to be motorcycles. One day it will be all quiet around here... I acn't even imagine what it will be like...