Preparing A Good Bye

Thursday May 25, 2017

"The sun is on its way down but the air is still quite warm. Emmy Bo has invited two best friends for a birthday sleep over and after an afternoon spent at the pool, taco dinner and Jello, they are now jumping themselves wild on the trampoline outside my window. I’m taking a moment to read a couple of blog posts, check ideas on Pinterest on how to make the most out of our tiny living room at the summer house… This day makes for a perfect ramble, but I’m exhausted… I can’t for my life download the pictures in my camera or put together the words. I feel sadness. I’m about to let go and it hurts.

The hours passes and so does the days. The weeks and then suddenly there will be another month to add to my life. Another year. I've taken a step back, as you might have noticed. Not just here but everywhere in Cyber World. I'm "cybered" out and I need a break. It's too fast. It's too much. And I could just drop out. I have no responsibility, really, but I just don't want to. Too many friendships have been made, too many discussions has been had, too many thoughtful words has been exchanged, too much joy and misery has been shared. With you. Right here in my space. I built this. From nothing. I can not just close the door on that, can I? It is just too precious to me.

How does one blow life in a fire that has burnt out? How does someone start an engine when the tank is empty? How can the machinery possibly continue to move when something essential is missing? How does someone recover from inspiration overload that killed the natural creative spirit?"

It has taken me a few days to collect the words in my head to finish the blog post I started last week... I guess today is the day I need to do this. I could wait until tomorrow but why? No, I think I need to tell you this today. I have made a decision to say good bye.

My life is shifting. I need new direction, new goals, new adventures. A fresh start. I want to find myself a good job where my creative and professional skills come in handy. Maybe in graphic design, communication or education. Build myself a new professional self that I can comfortably rely on, grow with and be good at. A job that gives me a paycheck at the end of the month, colleagues that I can chat with about daily life and a sense of accomplishment for contributing as a professional in a work place. I want a basic, normal life in the real world. Take a break from social media to rediscover my path in life. 

I'm not saying it is over just yet, but soon I will sign off. I will do my very best to finish this journey on top of my game and share as much as possible. Finishing the projects and blog posts I once started and talk about my thoughts of me leaving Blogland, explain a bit more. I think it is important to talk about this. Not just for me, but for other bloggers that are going through the same thing. So, I hope you stay with me for a little while longer.

When school holidays starts in July I will sign off. It is not easy to write this and it will be even harder to push the posting button... Letting go is never an easy thing. But nothing is ever written in stone. There is always a way back if I want to. Who knows? After all, I'm the boss here. I decide. This is my space.

The BLOG will still be here, open for everyone to visit whenever you feel like it. My  TUTORIALS & FREE PATTERNS will still be available 24/7. My ORIGINAL PATTERNS will continue to be available for purchase in my ETSY and RAVELRY shop. Nothing of that will change.

Many of you have followed me from the very start and I feel so privileged to have had this wonderful ride. I'm so grateful to everyone who has taken the time and efforts to read and write comments through the years. I feel so lucky to have been a part of this great community, never in a million years did I expect that you would become so dear to me or that My Rose Valley would become this very special place for so many and most of all for myself. THANK YOU!

So... my children are rolling in through the door demanding my attention for lunch. I better go. As I said though, I still have stories to tell, thoughts to share, pictures to show and projects to finish. I hope you will enjoy my last month here in Blogland. See you around my lovelies.

Kärlek
Annette

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